English Subtitles: Walrus Timing by: Aviqail
- Excuse me? - Yes.
I've got it.
Can I help you?
- Where is the economy section? - One minute.
On the third floor, No. 720.
Really little.
"To me, I hate you so much."
Finally woke up.
You're in hell So live, do not give up.
You know where you fell?
Where did you come from?
I lost my contact lens.
Do not even think about trying to escape.
Nobody has succeeded yet.
Glasses!
My glasses?
Glasses?
Where are my glasses?
You should give her a tranquilizer.
All right.
No! Stop!
- Calm down! - Stop!
- Listen up! - Attention!
Today there is a dessert banana cake.
And "Chicken Milk" cake.
And more...
Strawberry pudding.
Enjoy!
Did you know...
We got a new girl last night who attempted suicide?
I know.
We know we know.
Girl! Speak!
So young...
Why not allow them to die to end the suffering?
Exactly.
For example, I do not want to live outside the hospital.
There are those that are really crazy and those that pretend.
However, everybody is able to live peacefully.
Exactly. Here is a safe chaos.
Safe chaos.
Safe chaos, safe chaos...
Be nice to that girl and she will like it...
And wants to stay forever.
Yokomizo, Takada, Totiko and Ikeda Room for intensive therapy.
Who is ER?
Murakada.
Let's get to work then. Don't touch!
Wandering around. May suffer from insomnia.
- Give her the sedative and calcium. - Okay.
Regarding the patient who has tried to commit suicide with sleeping pills.
Okabe-kun!
Don't rush!
You want to deny me all the charm of the review?
Of course not.
The first review...
should be the best.
How do you feel?
Awful.
Wonderful.
You cannot feel good.
I'll ask you a few questions please reply.
For starters: name, year of birth, address, How you're doing.
Are you married?
Not yet?
Don't you remember?
Perhaps, the sedatives affected her memory.
Stop.
Too bright?
Naturally.
Hey...
This is not a normal hospital?
Normal? What do you mean?
You ask me all these questions.
Leave me alone.
I...
I decided...
To die.
All right.
People can choose their own fate
So I am required to realize consequences of their actions.
Overdose of sleeping pills...
caused you to fall into a deep coma.
Causing...
necrosis.
Necrosis?
Soon your heart will stop beating.
Which will lead to imminent death.
Because of the pills...
your heart will stop.
In a word - your heart...
is irreparably damaged.
You will die.
When?
You have one week.
Maximum...
10 days.
Am I in jail?
No, a mental hospital.
I'm not crazy.
They all say that.
Crazy, is not crazy...
Want to know what madness is?
Who are you?
Mamatasachi. I'm your roommate.
I'll tell you what it means to be crazy.
I'm not crazy. I tried to commit suicide, but failed.
People living in their own world call them crazy.
Like you, for example?
Remember Galileo, who said, the Earth goes around the Sun.
Or Einstein, who thought
There is no time and space but only spacetime.
Columbus too insisted
that the other side of the ocean was not abyss, but a continent.
Or the Beatles, who created different music
dressed as people from another era
and sang that love is everything.
Initially everyone considered them crazy.
You...
don't seem crazy.
No, I'm really mad.
They even treat me.
My problem is that in my brain there is a shortage of serotonin.
But rather than take supplements
I prefer to stay mad.
Because...
I want to live after their dreams.
And not as others want.
Hey!
What do you think the world is like behind the walls of the hospital?
People who are not considered crazy.
People who are considered normal.
That are always forced to act the same.
They say you will die soon. Is it true?
I just wanted to die sleeping...
Unfortunately...
I cannot fulfill your request.
Don't worry, you're going to die anyway.
I alone can decide that.
How true.
Found it.
Raise your hands and then reach up.
Breakfast! It's time for breakfast!
Today we have eggs for breakfast asparagus and more.
Enjoy all!
For your health, you have to eat well too.
Sorry, but I don't want to be healthy.
But you have to eat!
We all have equal portions.
- Good morning. - Good morning.
Attention!
After breakfast you go to the street and watch the sun.
Mr. Sun, good morning.
Good morning.
You too.
The sun is not even out.
What?
It showed! It showed up!
It is only light, but it soothes the patients.
Senior nurse.
Thank you.
This tea is very high quality.
How nice!
Excuse me Leave me alone.
There is one thing you want.
Sleeping pills.
Can you find any?
Why don't you ask her?
Seoko Endo, a member of the brotherhood.
Brotherhood?
A particular group of people who have almost been rehabilitated.
Look how nice it is here.
She behaves like a housewife to the clinic.
She can leave and go outside the hospital.
Can you ask her?
What a beautiful sky!
I want to get on a rocket and fly away.
A rocket that will never return to earth.
Stella, Stella Star.
Childbirth - it's a miracle.
She is an actress.
She has performed for a long time
She still hopes to be invited back to the stage.
Crazy!
What are you doing?
Nothing.
Just passing by.
Nothing. Just passing by.
You can come in.
What do you do with masturbation?
Strange.
What me?
To hit someone...
How...
It is also gaining experience.
Do not talk as if you understand everything.
If you could...
be separate from me...
You would have more freedom.
Leave me alone!
What are you staring at?
Well? Be sure to come back after 10 minutes.
It is now 9:10. Got it?
I don't have to fly.
We will increase the time of the trip a little.
I love to fly.
Only 10 minutes. We have a reservation.
Otherwise you cannot go again.
You sleep.
Slowly.
Slow sleep.
Sinking...
in deep...
restful sleep.
Kuroda!
For the first time you seem to be interested in something.
Nobody wants to have anything to do with that girl.
Because...
she will die soon.
They hope she goes quietly.
In this girl too...
there is something...
especially...
some kind of aroma.
That night, when he fled into the forest...
I think he was in Wonderland.
With such a scent.
Right?
Kuroda...
you're right...
you feel with your nose...
everything that's special.
Doctor, please...
How many days have I been here? 4?
5 days? 6 days?
In the remaining days you can can do whatever you want.
Because there are no rules here.
Try it!
Remember something fun.
Can I ask you something?
Why did you...
decided to commit suicide?
Because I have everything
And nothing at the same time.
How old are you?
28.
So young.
Young?
When I was younger
I thought it was too early to make that choice.
Now...
it seems too late to change whatever it is
I was independent.
Really.
I worked in the public library.
My salary was good. I had someone to love.
Just that...
nothing.
What do you mean?
Youth passes,
and then it just breaks down.
You get spots and wrinkles and diseases.
Nobody loves you.
Nothing is nice
You have everything
But have nothing.
I'm tired of this boring life.
Because it is uninteresting.
So I decided to die.
Seoko-san!
Thank you for helping me.
Helping my people is a professional habit.
I was a lawyer.
And a good one at that.
By that time I came to this hospital.
Cold?
Sharing the warmth makes it hard to think about death.
I do not want to admit that money gives freedom
but the possibilities are endless.
Want to go to the movies?
10 years ago...
walking with my husband...
We came here.
Saw a documentary...
on Afghanistan.
What is it?
Are you okay?
Seoko!
What's wrong? What happened?
Wait, I 'Il be...
Don't leave me!
What is happening? It's normal, right?
Tell me! Tell me!
I got diagnosed - a panic attack.
I moved on right away.
I went back to work
but...
it happened again and again.
Are you okay?
They found out I have a mental illness
I was immediately fired.
My husband requested a divorce.
I resigned
and came to this hospital.
"You're treated...
why should you leave your job?"
I don't know.
In life things just happen.
Then I...
Had doubts for the first time...
in my choice of profession.
It seemed to me that I could not help anyone.
I wanted to be useful, someone to need me.
I wanted to dedicate the remainder of my life to voluntary work.
But everyone rose against me.
Even my husband.
I wanted something to change.
These thoughts were chasing me.
Watching this documentary....
I asked what...
What am I...
doing here? What am I doing?
During the panic...
I start to shout, to cry.
I lost control.
I brought trouble to my husband.
Today...
you saw yourself.
I wanted to try...
to go back to that dark movie theater.
But...
again...
I got an attack.
Yes, but...
you quickly regained control.
Sachi
Where are you?
Come back!
Sachi!
It's nice to fly!
Where are you? Sachi?
What happened?
She really does not want to return to her body.
Under hypnosis she flies and is happy.
Sachi!
Mamatasachi-san!
Mama-san! Mama-san!
Doctor!
Mama-san!
- Mama-san! - Sachi, come back soon!
Hey Sachi!
You chose death, yet you have everything?
- Of course. - Then how?
I have eaten 137 pills. or was it 138? 139?
Let's fly.
You just jump.
We have been here so many times.
What is this?
Euthanasia
Once we are in place
It will look like a serious case. Then they will respect us.
Exactly.
Simple.
Mental illness an unhealthy head.
Not even interesting.
Sorry, they were worried.
Scare you?
A little.
You know I love to fly.
Tell me...
why did you come to this hospital?
You interested all of a sudden? Huh?
I don't know.
My story is very silly.
But if you want, I'll tell it.
The first time I fell in love,
I was 15 years old.
I loved him so much...
then he no longer acted like himself.
And he left me.
As much as I begged him, he did not want to see me.
I no longer understood him.
To forget him...
I began to see other men.
I married one of them.
He is very good and hardworking.
We had two children.
But
I could not get rid of the memories.
Every day I thought only...
about the first man.
I could not sleep or eat.
Once...
I was in a small room...
with my children and husband, but they were so good it was annoying
So I stopped listening to them.
In spite of that...
I love my children. Really.
But...
but I cannot give them my love.
Sometimes I think I wont ever see them again...
and it was so unbearable.
When I fly...
I want to fly to my children.
But I don't do it
because they will not see me!
So sometimes I'm acting weird.
Doctors say it is a shortage of serotonin,
but...
I know...
It is because of this unrequited love.
But you...
you...
at least you...
have someone to love.
I have no one.
Yeah...
Shinozaki-san!
Breaking the rules again?
What an eye opener.
Senior Sister, thank you for the hard work.
Thank you.
Vodka again?
Vodka?
I'm off my shift.
Besides we are all adults.
Vodka vodka vodka vodka.
What? Where? Where?
Instead of living in torment because of stress...
it is better to just let it go.
That is what chief doctor says.
When I was young...
I also wanted to kill myself.
You?
I understand what it is like.
Then, why did you want to die?
Because...
I hated myself.
But now, it's all love!
Shinozaki-san!
Your mother came to see you.
Your mother.
I don't want to see her.
But you have to. She came just to see you.
I said I don't want to see her!
How...?!
What happened?
I got a call from some stranger...
and they said that my daughter attempted suicide.
Well, you see. That was a mistake.
Of course it is!
My daughter could not do such a thing.
If we had found her only minutes later...
it would have been too late.
Why?
What reason did she have?
I divorced my husband...
When she was still very little.
Because of this, she feels unhappy.
How long has your daughter lived alone?
Since she was a student.
If she had continued to play piano
I don't think it would have come to this.
Piano?
Since she was little, she has played piano.
She had talent.
Therefore, despite the difficulties
I wanted her to study at the Conservatory.
She worked very hard.
She played every day.
At the most important moment...
it happened...
About her daughter...
She does not want to see her mother.
She doesn't want...
to meet...
with me...
We'll take care of your daughter.
I did everything I could.
I was trying to be well-mannered
I don't understand this.
I'm mad!
So I can hit the keys.
On that day...
I told Mom about my experiences.
Daddy, Daddy, Daddy.
That only Dad had loved me.
What do you think mom had to say to that?
"You are confused."
"Always hiding behind my skirt and not even paying attention."
And my memories?
Yes.
I failed the exam.
Destroyed the dream of my mother.
But nothing can be done.
I don't have the power to change it.
I hate this mother!
Under my own power I joined the State University.
I started working in a library.
I worked with a large database.
Boring job.
Day to day...
I took new and used books, entered them into the database.
Every single one...
I hate it!
More than anything - I hate myself!
I hate it!
Someone help! Anybody!
Anybody!
Someone come here!
Kuroda! Kuroda, step back.
You're going to die.
What's the rush?
I told you it will happen either way.
Normal temperature.
Tell me...
Kuroda...
How long has he been here?
About 4 years.
Are you interested?
He's from a family of prominent politicians.
Grew up in an ideal environment.
He was the top of his class.
His parents wanted him to follow in their footsteps.
But Kuroda dreamt of becoming an artist.
They say that...
With great spirit...
he painted visions of the paradise
He discovered them.
Visions of paradise?
It seems to me he had a spiritual vision
to create a new world.
His parents were against it.
After several of his breakdowns
he was locked from the outside world,
and his family moved him here.
Normal blood pressure.
No one stops him from painting his heavenly visions.
Although so far he has been locked away in his own world.
We were very surprised when he called for help.
First time we heard his voice. He was really scared.
Since joining here
I changed a lot.
A week ago...
What day...
will be tomorrow?
In absolute turmoil...
every day...
over and over again.
You know the stone is also growing?
Stone?
Look.
What a magnificent crystal.
Now...
This is an adult rock.
Although he has had several millenia.
Tens of thousands of years.
Isn't he handsome?
Whatever form they take,
I could not believe...
that all his days were identical.
It's magnificent.
If I had noticed earlier...
Have you ever given away your books?
Seoko-san?
Leaving your favorite book
that you know by heart.
And start another book.
But if you noticed
you cannot save the future.
Then...
That favorite book...
is no longer so interesting.
Indeed.
I had to do it, that’s what I like.
We should do what we enjoy.
I think so.
Sachi?
You...
Have you ever had truly satisfying sex?
Truly...
satisfying...
sex?
It is so simple to get this complete satisfaction.
But it's not so simple to find satisfaction in life.
I think so too.
And what is this satisfying sex?
It depends on people.
Gentle sex, rough sex happy sex, depressed sex
Moderate sex.
Who was your best partner?
I...
I never felt anything.
I always pretended to like it.
I did not want them to hate me.
It was easier.
For me and my partner.
Also...
if...
I felt something...
then...
I could...
really feel connected.
Like...
to sink...
in a deep well.
Try masturbation.
You know your own feelings best.
You want to raise your self-esteem?
So before death, try masturbation.
The most important thing...
is to be confident.
Not only with your heart but with your body.
Although you only have a little time left...
I want you to start to love yourself.
Kuroda...
Be my...
last lover.
I want...
to find myself.
Yes, yes.
Kuroda.
You shouldn't...
give up your visions.
Wherever you go, do not give up on yourself.
You may not want to leave.
Because of this girl.
In the depths of my soul...
I too...
am still able to dream.
Doctor!
How...
long do I have to live?
I want to live fully till the end.
If you tell me the truth...
I...
will accept it.
24 hours.
Or...
even less.
That means...
I will never see...
the sunrise again.
For certain.
So this is..
your...
heavenly vision?
I only have...
one night left.
I want to get out of here.
I want to choose the place of death.
Will you send me off?
Goodbye.
Kuroda!
You...
took care of me.
You helped me...
find myself.
Attention!
Let us pray for Endo Seoko.
Here you are.
Your plan worked great.
I'm talking about patient Shinozaki.
"Your heart will stop."
Thus, force her to appreciate
the time she has left.
Magnificent!
Chief doctor?
Kuroda!
Just once...
paint me...
in your heavenly visions.
I...
will forever...
be painting you.
Thank you.
Now I bathe in the rays of the rising sun.
I decided to live again.